0800hrs-Go school.
0900hrs-have lessons.
1200-makan
1300-have practical
1500-go home.
1545-bathe and sleep.
1700-go work.
life is getting much of a routine...
it just gets better and better..
no life,no love and no "lu-whee"(money)
how does it feel to love and not been loved?
how does it feel to see and not been seen?
how does it feel to give and not been given?
how does it feel to miss and not been missed?
how does it feel to cry and not been cried for?
how does it feel to find and not been found?
i can tell you,
it sucks.
big time.
and thus,through much consideration and pondering..he has come up with the most reluctant solution.he has choosen to hide his feelings,throwing his love into the sky of stars that hung in the vast universe..never to be found..
Marine Engineering-a module that is a branch of mechanical engineering,which deals with the mechanical subjects in marine application.I will (am suppose to) learn various engineering systems which propel and operate the ship.
the lecturer is there talking to himself and the rest of us are slacking away...most of our lappys are on.the rest are either sleeping and trying hard to make out what he is talking about.
First row of the class-those without laptops on who are listening to the lecturer;most of them are scholars on scholarships..the smart ones.
Second,third and fourth row-The slacking begins here..some are trying hard to listen...lying on the table...listen awhile...then sleep awhile...then wake up listen again..bla bla...others with lappy are listening to music,playing games..then there's one watching The Eye 10.LOL...
but on and off tries to go back into the lesson and capture some points.
i'm here,blogging...duh.haha.
last row of the class-the own time own target group...haha...watch newspaper...watch movie...sleep...haha...u noe what i mean...
one and a half more hours to go...gesh.....
juz finished three hours of sleep and something tells mi that is not enuff...i'm getting tired...weary...sick of everything...i'm not eating well...i'm not feeling well...and the worst is that i haf a painful boiling pimple below my nose near to my lips now...it hurts!
all these because of one reason.
I'm unhappy.
-wished that it was me.
Love-a unmeasurable,formless thing.
It's already not easy to describe in words..
No wonder it's so hard to actually feel what it's like.
It's one thing on earth that can either put u together or..tear u apart.
Whenever i hear this word,i'm tremble with fear.
How can something unmeasurable and formless be so impacting??
Throughout our life,we're constantly in search for love..
Some find it with minimum ease...
Others take years of hard work and reap what they sow.
And then there they're those who will not ever find it.
Whether we're in our early teens or at our working age,or even when we're old and dying..we'ld always hope that there beside us,would be the one we love.
Well,here's my message to fellow readers:
1.For those who found love,dun take it for granted.
2.For those who have not found love,go find it.
3.For those who tried finding it and found it,read number 1 again.
4.For those who tried and found nothing but emptiness,maybe u can try writing an entry like mi..=)
Some say love makes the world go round,i would rather choose to believe it's actually the magnetic force we have the end tips of the earth.
Over and out.
if u ever examine this chinese character carefully...
想-To feel the lack/absence or loss of something/someone.
tear down the chracter to get two more characters.
相-each other or one another;mutually
心-heart or mind
wouldn't '想' mean...thinking of EaCh OtHeR in your HeArT and mInD??
not always the case...
i'm kinda in a mixed feeling zone....a lot of things to think..there're a lot of things to do....a lot of things to say..
somehow...things are not done...things are not being said...
but thoughts were being processed...but sadly never worked out..
argh.
this sucks.
Don't feel bad when you're feeling sad,
Don't feel confused but keep yourself amused,
Don't feel useless because you are priceless,
Don't feel inferior in fact you are superior,
Don't feel nothing i'm sure you're something,
Don't feel lost at no matter what cost,
Don't feel lonely as the journey gets bumpy,
I'll always be there to make u happy!!
it's hard to lift a mountain;but it's harder to lift up a burden.
it's hard to decide your fate;but it's harder to ask u on a date.
it's hard to hold the wind;but it's harder to make u my queen.
it's hard to grab the water;but it's harder to accept your answer.
it's hard to catch a shooting star;but it's harder to catch u that far.
it's hard to write this poem;but it's harder to feel your heart's rhythm.....
灰心生失望，失望生不幸，不幸生失败.
我会造福人群！！
我会成功！！
我.......
我...
会成功吗？？
我......
造福人群吗？？
gonna take a break from writing stories. To me,my story sounded really sound stupid...haha...
so until i find new and better inspiration!!and of coz..a better range of vocabs. =)
hmmm..fourth week of poly coming up soon!!year 2 this way wasn't what i expected...out of five days..three of my classes end at 12!!LOL! make that two! coz one of them ends at 11!! =)
so yea..still slacking round...
it's freakingly hot nowadays...it juz gets on my nerves..... argh!!i'm going out for a jog...drink more water people!!
The nurse scribbled something on her clipboard and left the room.
Silence once befalls in the room...It's that kind of silence that makes one feel so uneasy,so unatural...and so hurting..
Joanna looked on...The corner of her eyes caught glance of a glass bottle on the deck beside Jacky..
The brown transparent bottle reads:" Prednisone "."WARNING:Over-dosage may lead to fatal death.Please consult medical advise before consuming."
The nurse probably left it here unknowingly....
Prednisone...Joanna read this somewhere during her chemistry lesson..but forgot what it was used for.
Suddenly Joanna remembered something.....
Jacky was supposed to be acting with her in the play"Romeo and Juliet" before he went for the operation...
But things were a little bit different.Now the one in sleep was Romeo.
This was it.
This was the moment.
Joanna closed up to Jacky's bed and held him in her arms as she began to reenact the sence.
"Ah, dear Romeo, why art thou yet so fair? Shall I believe that unsubstantial Death is amorous, and that the lean abhorred monster keeps thee here in dark to be her paramour? "
Instead of letting Death be "Romeo"'s paramour, "Juliet" vows to never depart again from Romeo...
"In this palace of dim night...Here will I remain with worms that are thy chamber maids!"Joanna sobs, takes one last look at Jacky, one last embrace, and a final kiss to seal her "dateless bargain to engrossing death":
"Eyes look your last. Arms, take your last embrace. And lips, o you the doors of breath, seal with a righteous kiss a dateless bargain to engrossing death."
Overwhelmed by sorrow,Joanna removes the bottle of" Prednisone" that was in her hand, toasts to her love, swallows the kiss of poison, and kisses his hand before falling beside him: "Here's to my love! Thus with a kiss, I die."
Joanna falls into the stiff lifeless arms of Jacky....
And there she lied till eternity....
Few weeks later...Jacky passed away....
END.
i know...a poor finished ending...the whole story sucks....ok...at least it ended rite?? =)