aH-Ha0's woRLd oF "ha0-n3Ss"

It's hell in Keppel FELS....tired..sleepy...cold...and hungry...

clear sky...bright stars...cold wind....it is nights like these that makes mi think of someone...

well,

see you later in my dreams....=)

Life at this moment is hectic and busy....no time to relax yourself down and rest.......
But some things just won't get out of my head..

U LA~~~
hmmm..

Life is good,life is bad.
It could be happy,but it's normally sad.
Life is beautiful,life is ugly.
You'll soon find out that it is sucky.
Life is smooth,life is rough.
All it does is make u tough.
Life is brightness,life is darkness.
Yet all i can feel is only the loniness.
Life is fast,life is slow.
You're the star that makes mi glow.
Life is full,life is empty.
I need u here to make my day sunny.
Life is love,life is hate.
I'm like a string waiting to break.
Life is busy,life is free.
My heart is locked and you're the key.
Life is noisy,life is quiet.
All these stuffs are making mi feel wierd.

Life is you,life is me.

I'm really missing u like crazy..

another day...
juz another day..
work work work...hahaha..
juz got back from late dinner with my cousin,sharing some experience since he also once worked for Sembawang Shipyard...the comments were...bad..very bad..haha..the enviornment is bad la i agree...it's hot...it's tough..and it's dirty...but the pay is....wooo!!!i heard Keppel got 4 months and 8 days year end bonus last year lo!!!but shld i ever get into Keppel and work..will i live that long??hmm..all that blasting and painting has got to at least cut off a quarter of my life..ha..makes mi wonder if i should stay in the marine industry..

*slaps head**

of coz must la!!wah lau!!!study marine offshore dun go marine industry then do wat?!?!

hmmmmm....

look at the time...jua got back from work at JP...another day pass..like what Ah-Huat say..."you jing wu sian,you guo yi tian..."
speaking of Huat..he currently in FELS,my company i attached to??well,apparently he works for Jotun...one of the sub- companies that supplys piant to FELS..so lunch can meet him up for coffee or smth...HAHA...at least it's not so bored..
Jotun also damm slack..he told mi he OTOT 1..anytime go back also can~
LOL..slacker...
but still it's tiring life i tell u...i wonder if this is the real work life i'll be living after i finish my studies...hmmm..

recently i dreamt of someone these few nights...somehow her face didn't appear..she was always facing her back to me..i dunno why...strange dreams...is the heavy workload taking it's tow on me??
maybe i guess..

but i know it's her..
I JUST KNOW IT...

hmmm...i reckon more of these dreams will come...
Like i said eariler before..
Dreams always will be dreams..

Ring****
time to sleep...tml still have to work!!!stupid company with 5 and half days a week!!!

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-=F-U-C-K=-
No wonder they say the word "FUCK" is a universal word...whether you're a Bangla from blangladash(is this how u spell it?),a china man from china,a dutch from holland, a Singaporean from Singapore or a.....(seriously i could go on forever~~).You'll definitely noe and understand the word "FUCK"

fourth day since i've been in Keepel FELS and the most number of times i heard of a word is FUCK-related..it could be..
"Kena fucked"
"What the fuck?"
"Fucking hell"
and the most famous.."Fuck You!!"
oh ya,
sometimes they would change the "FUCK" to "SCREW"

i hear them everywhere!!!in the office,in the changing room..in the toilet when i'm shitting..in meetings...practically everywhere in the shipyard!!!everyone is fucking!!!
"fucked-up" place yea?? =p

let me give u a few examples which i've observed..

Bangla 1:"Good morning Mutu!!!"
Bangla 2:"Fuck u !!"

Bangla 1:"Boss, the section B-236 haven finish doing spray painting leh~how??"(In a very bangla-ish accent)
Boss 2:"You ask mi how?!?!Fucking hell!!!what the fuck is your men doing?!!"

Bangla 1:"So how the meeting??"
Foreman 2:"Kena screwed like fuck la~~what else.."

Boss 1:"Oei frend,help mi buy 2 packet teh,one packet milo,3 packet roti...bla..."
Boss 2:"FUCK UUUUUU!!!!!"

ok that's it for the examples...i think u already noe what i mean..

WELL,
i guess it really brings people of different races together...so next time u see me...smile and say...:How the fuck are u my frend?!?!"HAHAHAHA...

ALL HAIL THE F LANGUAGE~~~~~
HAHAHAHA....

All the shipyard work is driving mi craziiiii~~~~~~

i'm so tired i could sleep a million years forever~
let's see how long can i tahan this kinda working life....

woke up late today,missed my company bus...took cab down..shit shit shit!!!
other than that, it's juz a normal day...

i'm missing someone...if only u knew...

second day at work...so the real deal didn't came...the other 5 ppl were sent to the hull section,i was sent to the painting section..ALONE...why can't i leave this word...it feels kinda sian to be the onli one in the section..ALONE....alone....ALONE....ZZzzzZZz...

Anyway,i got into this office..it was the painting QC office..my mentor(the guy who was suppose to take care of me) gave me some magazine and asked me to read and said he'll be back in a while...He came back 30 mins b4 lunch...4 HOURS later...LOL...i partically slacked in the office...slept,wake up....selpt again...inside the office,once in a while..some blangla wld come in...tok cock...

They asked mi if i was from CHina..LOL...they see one chinese,they think it's china...well,i don't blame them...i see one indian,i think they're from India...LOL..and also i can't differentiate them!!!they all looked the same!!!veri hard to call out their name..scared call wrong ppl...

I got to move around the yard after lunch..ah..at last some movement!!!went to some places...slack in office again...this time the blasting QC office...with another mentor..also ex student...bought teh and treat me drink..haha..

From what i see,they just sign and sign papers...haha...but they told me working in the yard is a very hectic job..although the pay is high..take my mentor for example,he works 13 hr a day...all week...LOL...think can die ah~~

speaking of dying..i gotta go sleep liao..tml still haf work at JP...

Just got back from JP Value shop...already starting to feel tired~~~die...how to survive..HAHA..

Attachment at Keppel FELS...LOL...first day...nothing much was done la~everyone was like bz doing their own stuff and left us there on the desk to rot~~haha..drew our PPE (personnal Protective Equipment),hey!!the boots looks damm tough and cool!!haha..got our lockers...bla bla...didn't do anything la~~well first day is always like that huh??

Guess tml will be the real deal...

i better get some sleep...

questions...questions and more questions....

So many questions,but so few answers...

So few answers,but so many questions...

How can like that??????????

Like i said,one thing happens,and everything changes...the problem is i dun noe it's for the better,or the worst??

Well,i already give up long ago didn't i??so what's holding me back??what's it that is making me feel so helpless?

Once again,so many questions...and none answered..

maybe questions already become the answers..and the answers already become as pointless as the questions..

out of a sudden,life suddenly slows down and it seems so hard to move on...it's these times that makes u feel down and out..

argh......

wow!!wat a nite!!!haha..
Woke up at 3pm...got a call frommy classmate Kok Liang that he's coming over to pick me up..he rented a van..we were supposed to go over to Malaysia to eat...eat...and eat!!!
But in the end didn't go...so Bro P.C came over to my place and waited for Kok Liang to come over...
So mi,kok liang,bro p.c,chor yeow and eddy went to Creative to get jun hao...
THIS IS WHERE THE SUAY PART began...
as we were moving out of the carpark...there were 2 exits...Seasoned parkers and the hourly parkers...we went to the wrong one...nvm...the correct one was just beside...somehow,when we corss over to the other lane...the van got stuck in the divder..and we rammed into the signboard...SHIT...reverse and forward...reverse and forward..but still got stuck!!by then,there were a lot of cars waiting behind liao...DIE...finally we got out of the mess..(we forced the van out and the signboard flew off,LOL and the van suffered a few sratches).Hope the rental company won't see it...HAHA..
The signboard??it flew a metre away from where we were,chor yeow put it next to the stand where the board used to be..haha..and we were joking abt ppl have to pick up the sign to see..HAHA

Ok,so we moved out of jurong and went to Marina to makan steamboat...waste money again la~haha 11 bucks for the amount of food i ate that only worth 5...HAHA...after makan we sent Chor Yeow and Junhao to MRT...after that went to town in hope to get a room at Party World..but full house..sian..so we decided to go Changi to see airplanes..haha..reached there..bought some snacks and drinks at Cheers...went to the beach park..play cards...tok cock..haha..

Den...rain.....so..go home lo~~haha..

A fun day...sitting at the back of the van...SO HOT...haha...but fun..getting LOST because we don't know which road to go....but fun...ppl FARTING in the van and killing us..but fun..HAHA..it's nice to have a vehicle to move around...can go places..HAHA...

HAHA..yea...hmm...no more other days to relac already...tml..no work...boss dun need i =\...guess i'm gonna rest tml and get ready for my attachment!!hmmm..well, time to hit the sack again!!!ciaoz!!

Last paper...let's do it....

Hmmm...

i'm thinking deep....very deep....

HAHA just finished my BTF revision....it's not last mintue!!!it's just...the last second...HAHAHA well, time to catch some sleep...Good Luck to those taking exams!!=)

watching WWE now~~ the show suck man!!

A nice warm bath and i'm back from riding...woo..Riding on the streets late at night,getting shouted at by an aunt who thinks that we shouldn't be riding in the interchange...(who cares??!?!! it was 12 lo!!!)...feeling the blood rush up my head when i flew off the stairs..

Aw...i gotta ride more man~~haha..

Anyway, i got a job!!! and it's starting this Sat...It's at Jurong Point so if u guys are free...can drop by!! where??Value Dollar shop..haha...my boss called me yesterday night and asked if i was interested to work again....Well...why not??!?! i'm outta cash man!!

What about my attachment???no prob man,it ends at four thirty...so porbably i'll take the 6-10 slot~~=)
Chiong ah~~
Bo pian.....no money~~ haha...

Sometimes life seems to unwind like a big brown ball of strings.Every morning you roll out of your bed, and pick up the string you dropped it at the night before.And then off u go.

Today seemed pretty much the same as yesterday,and the day before yesterday...and the day before yesterday....and the day before...

One more day,one after another.One more length of string...and that big brown ball just keep unwinding...

But some days are'nt like that at all.They don't unwind anymore,they snapped.And they land like bricks.

One thing happens.....

and everything changes.

It could be:

-a phone call

-a decision

-something someone says or does

-an accident

Whatever it is,that ONE thing changes your life,maybe for the better,maybe not.It's like you turned a corner and walked smack into a world you've never seen before.

A world of...

Darkness??

Solitude??

Fear??

or perhaps Lonliness?

One thing happens.....

and everything changes.

How can u knit back a little thin brown string when it's snapped???

direction,at least give just any direction.

I need a lighthouse in my life...

FAST.

another DAY passed,it's just another DAY...you dun look forward to the ANOTHER DAY coming...no aim...no target....no direction...
what am i gonna do?haha..probably just luff my way through life....beats crying my way through rite??

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH HAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA......

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NOT FARNI~~~~

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

The interview yesterday kinda suck.You actually need an interview to get into Keppel..LOL...well,i just hope i can get in la~~it's a big company..with it's own stocks...and has got shipyards round the world...HAHA...Keppel FELs is the name..it deals with 60% of the world's jack-ups and oil-rigs,from construction to repair..which is cool lah~haha..

One day,i'll bulid one oil-rig,bring it out to sea and suck up all the oil i can and sell it!!!then i'll be so rich!!!!haha!!!

If everything goes smoothly,i'll be working my ass off for the next 5 weeks,starting from 19th..straight after my exams...kinda suck..no time to relax..It'll be 5 and a half days a week...from 0730 to 1630..one thing that bothers me is the pay!!420 bucks a month!!tat's like 2 bucks an hour!!Macdonalds pay more than them!!!but then again...it's suppose to be an IA..(Industrial Attachment).But we haf our rights!!!HAHAH!!

Hope i can get in lo~~ if not i'll just have to settle in elsewhere...

Well,whatever it is...really looking forward to working in a shipyard...getting to see the BIG ships and stuffs..HAHA...It's gonna be tiring~~~but at least it gets you of somethings in your mind..=)

oh shit...i forgot to save~~

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