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There's this garden my neighbour has since 2 years ago.And there was one particular flower that caught my eye. I didn't noticed it until a year ago.Then one day,BAM!! and it got me.It looked ordinary,like any kind of flowers you would see in any garden.But those soft and bright pedals that could sure brighten up my day anytime...

It felt special to me,to my heart.

Some time later, a gardener came to man the garden...paying special attention to that particular flower that stood up amongest the rest..and so the flower bloomed and blossomed..and then when we thought what's next would be 'happily ever after'.Feeling too much of a burden to man the garden,the gardener left.

The greens turned brown..Soon after,the flower witherd and was dying.Trying to revive it,i sorted all ways to help save that once flourishing garden..but to no avail..

i was not the one that man the garden..

i was not the one that water them everyday..

i was not the one that had that sepcial touch with the flowers..

i was not the gardener.

Days passed, and then weeks,followed by months..

Suddenly, as sudden as it had started. The gardener came back, feeling that he should pick up what he has dropped.And so, the garden returned to what it used to be..

Pleasing to my eyes,but despairing to the heart.

Now,i look at my porch;barren and empty.

Thinking when will i have a garden of my own...

Study week...kinda bored...but lately been catching up some LOST season 2 serials i got from the net..and darn it's such a damm bloody good show!!watch till episode 5 now and keeps u begging for more...haha..

aw well,going school to do some revision tomorrow..

seeya.

A day where a simple dinner in a resturant could cost three times as expensive..

A day where u see girls and guys on the streets with flowers..

A day where u either feel so high up the sky or so low down..

A day couples look forward to,

and singles(like me) dread.

Ah...Valentine's Day...

Valentine my ass......

had this bad headache after movie yesterday..the pain was almost unbearable..tahan till home..vomitted out my mee kia.

Great,3 bucks down the toilet bowl.

quick bath,ate some panadols..can't remember how many and went to bed..

Pain still didn't go away.

That's the problem with headaches..the pain is inside your head..and there's basically nothing u can do to stop it..

i close my eyes..with the horrible pain still inside my head and had this silly thought,
"If i close my eyes,and never wake up again."

Then i started to imagine how my parents would discover my body..how they'ld arrange my funeral..and then there'll be this big big coffin that i'll be in..my frends were there..some weeping..others juz holding their heads down..
And just like this,as i continue to imagine my ideal funeral..i fell asleep.

Woke up today, the headache got a little bit better..Just a couple of "tremors" every now and then..other than that..i think i'm fine and not dying.Ha.Guess i'm gonna stay at home and rest today.

<一生绝望>

曲/杨波 词/梁智强

Verse
我们肆无忌惮 我们成群结党
我们目无尊长 对什么事都不满
看着我们的成长 只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处你又能怎样

我们don’t give a damn那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是 我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙

学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们 就告诉自己比人家强

有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会 替我们想想苹果为何变烂
其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望

副歌
泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望

有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望

Torino 2006 Winter games-Figure figure Skating Pairs showing now on channel 5 live..

rather entertaining..

gliding gracefully across the skating ground..

The guy is always ever so handsome..

And the lady as ever stunning..

=)

yesterday night was fun..but the steamboat kinda sucked..having stomache since morning..i'll upload the pics once i get it.

What happend on Sunday:

it's always been a tradition for the gang to come over my house to celebrate CNY..wat a better way to start the new year than inviting your buds to your house to hang round..nothing much really..same thing every year..juz eating..and gambling..

darn and i lost 16 bucks for mahjong..and then another 10 when playing 21pt.

Mum's probably right..i'm never cut out for gambling..

After that we decided to catch "I Not Stupid Too" over at Entertainment..
Reviews??very nice..very funny..and very local..

After that we went back to the void deck below my house to "lau" some "shang" since my parents were already asleep..

Getting ready to LAU....

Mum's own made Yu Sheng prove to be good.The plate was further 'cleaned' after this shot..

nothing really going on this week..plain...dull....and SO QUIET...=\

i juz finished catching "All About Love" aka "Say u love mi one more time" aka "再说一次我爱你was browsing through my folder in my lap-top when i found this show that i haven't watch...the show was alrite..but rather plain.. i could pretty much guessed out the storyline from the start..

i bite my mouth yesterday night while eating my noodles..now it hurts like hell..already put some salt but the saliva "washed" away the salt very quickly..coz the ulcer is all the way behind my back teeth..

now my whole right cheek is swollen...i can't eat properly.i can't talk properly and i can't sleep properly..argh.

Happy Chinese New Year??? with ang bao money of less than 150 RM...how can one be happy??

How do u define happy??From the vast knowledge on the internet, i found out that in dictionary term 'happy' means:
1.Characterized by good luck; fortunate.
2.Enjoying, showing, or marked by pleasure, satisfaction, or joy.

sounds very physically rite?

And mostly, they surface upon your face. But only for a split second.

but we all know there's a different kind of happy...the more sensual...the more happy,'happy'..the ones that warms your heart whenever u feel cold..

And well mostly and sadly, they too surface upon your heart. But only for a split second.

So ask yourself this question,when was the last time u really felt happy?

Does it really matter???to feel happy??

To me,real happiness is something far beyond my reach..nothing to feel sad about..because within this unreachable happiness, i feel contented..contented for what??i dun noe?perhaps for my families..or my friends..or maybe even for the air i get to breathe every morning when i wake up.

I'll end tonight's post with a quote i got from a friend:

"If you do not have what u like,
why not like what u already have?"

slept the whole afternnon..time for updates...

Chinese New Year in 2006 wasn't the greatest i've had,but i guessed it was alright..went back to Malaysia to my grandma's house..yea man..the old kampung style..the zinc coated metal sheet roof..the jelutong wooden house..a long and cold 7 hours car ride from SG..

nothing big really changed back in Sungei Dua(that's the kampung's name)...especially my grandma's house...juz a little bit older..and a little bit smaller..i guess i grew up.=) i saw the same slippers my grandpa wore when i was 10 years old..i remember how clumsy and big it wld look when i wore it.but hey..it fits nicely now.and then there's the wodden dinning chairs that has already served 3 generations..now still standing strong..there were a lot of things to look out for...things that brought back memories when i was young..it felt like all that happened not too long ago..everything just stayed in their shelves and place..it's a very special feeling..to be back at some place that held a part of my childhood life..a childhood life that few Singaporeans at my age have..playing marbles..riding around the kampung..fishing/bathing/shitting in the river...eating fresh fruits right off from the trees...catching fireflies..blowing up frogs with firecrackers =x...(i was young and senseless back then)..too many to mention...ha...

speaking of childhood..i didn't have the chance to see my friends there...the ones that brought me with our bikes around the the every little corner of the kampung..last time i would always look forward to meeting them whenever i was going back..and when i had to leave..they wld always be there to send mi off..i really kinda miss them...we've all grown up...and i'm curiuos what they may look like..