It's Monday again.
Days just pass by aimlessly around here...
There is not a night i slept peacefully..
I'm gonna break down anytime soon..
I remember i said this before:
"Life is like a straw, it sucks."
And this time round the straw is bigger than before.It sucks big big time.
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"The only EASY day was YESTERDAY.."
Navy Seals quote.
I saw it at NDU today.
How true..
book in book out..book in book out..
i'm starting to get use to this kind of life.Ain't booking out this coming week coz i sign extra...Why??Some stupid reason la.
A bit depressed,never feels good not being able to book out and to be confined.
BUT
Just sign and take it like a MAN.
=)
Rambo 4 was a nice movie.even though it's physically impossible for a guy to kill so many bad guys without getting himself killed..He got shot by a GPMG and still can act like nth happen.WTF?!
But he is RAMBO afterall.=)
Went up to Jurong Hill with the usual gang after that.
Ah...Jurong Hill.
Full of memories..Used to cycle up there every now and then after school.Those were the days,full of energy,full of passion,full of love..Now old liao,tired already..
Surprisingly,IT's still there.I looked at the date.
2002.
Wow it's been 6 years..
6 long years..
Relax guys.I didn't AWOL.
I'm just chilling at the Internet Cafe at Changi Naval Training Base..Farni why they call it a "Cafe".It's just a com lab with 20 odd coms.But i guess it's good enough.
Just finished our Fire Fighting course at Jalan Bahar.
Conclusion?
Never underestimate the Civil Defene lads.I always thought that CD are a bunch of slack ppl waiting for fires to fight.But my view changed when i took the 3 day course.We were exposed and also got to experience how a fire fighter live his life.
Donning on the fire-fighting suit and equipments is already a pain in the ass.Imagine putting u in a container with temperature rising up to 400 degrees celsius.I was sweating like a bloddy pig when i got out.
A lot of important and useful skills learned.
You really need to go through what they have in order to know how tough it is.
My respect to all fire-figthers.
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Is it really that hard to forget??
在爱情长跑里,为什么我总是慢人半拍...
回到過去
詞: 劉耕宏 曲: 周杰倫 編曲: 林邁可
一盞黃黃舊舊的燈 時間在旁悶不吭聲
寂寞下手毫無分寸 不懂得輕重之分
沉默支撐躍過陌生 靜靜看著凌晨黃昏
妳的身影 失去平衡 慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盤旋 該往哪我看不見
也許愛在夢的另一端 無法存活在真實的空間
想回到過去 試著抱妳在懷裡
羞怯的臉帶有一點稚氣
想看妳的看的世界,想在妳夢的畫面
祇要靠在一起就能感覺甜蜜
想回到過去 試著讓故事繼續
至少不再讓妳離我而去
分散時間的注意 這次會抱得更緊
這樣挽留不知還來不來得及 想回到過去
思緒不斷阻擋著回憶播放
盲目的追尋仍然空空盪盪
灰濛濛的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一轉身孤單已躺在身旁
沉默支撐躍過陌生 靜靜看著凌晨黃昏
妳的身影 失去平衡 慢慢下沉 想回到過去
well ok..so i didn't die and survived yet another week..but headache is still lurking around..it's been a tough week..
sleepless nights.
Sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night when everyone else is snoring away..and the only sound u hear is the blades of the fans.Thinking..and thinking..it's like trying to solve a complicated mathematical question that has no answer.Most ppl cry theirselves to sleep.Me?I think myself to sleep.ha.That probably explains the presistant headache.lol.
But there's one equation that solves the problem.
Panadol Extra > Headache
Panadol Extra for the win!!
=)
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How many more sleepless nights do i have to count?
沉默支撐躍過陌生 靜靜看著凌晨黃昏
妳的身影 失去平衡 慢慢下沉
想回到過去..
Woke up today with a splitting headache..can't seem to shake the pain off...it's like smth exploding inside my head..arghhh..been sleeping the whole afternoon..having my third dose of Panadol Extra.Hope it'll do the trick..
Will i die tml?? LoL..
**Updated at 1811Hrs.**
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Do not ask me why i love you,
because i love u the way u are.
Do not ask me not to love you,
because i know myself better than anyone do.
Do not ask me to forget,
because u know it's impposible to.
Do not ask me to be cruel,
because how can i do that to sum1 i adore?
Do not ask me to be fair,
because love is never fair.
Do not say you're sorry,
because i'm the one who is sorry.
**
To keep my silence and accept what is in front of me..
I guess it's better this way..At least i won't further embrassed myself thinking that things are possible.Sure it hurts like hell but like what the Army say:"Lan Lan Suck Thumb Lo".At least i've hit unto something hard,rather than hanging in the air not knowing what the heck is going on.
Don't feel bad or guilty beczuse it ain't your fault.It never was.Really. Just that i think too much.
In any case..
Hope u liked what you've recieved.=)
That was my last chance,
my last try.
No more nonsense from me anymore.
不尝试了..
不玩了..
游戏结束了..
Game over...
My Emo Poem..
An early Sunday morning,
An early Sunny day.
I had trouble sleeping last night,
but couldn't find a way.
My body feeling weak,
and the heart is feeling sick.
Coz the one that i seek,
I won't be seeing her for another week.
I know i'm not feeling okay,
And there's so much to say.
I told myself this sentence,
Let's not be dismayed.
She may never read this but i don't really mind,
all i ask from God is that u wld make her feel fine.
Away from all the sickness away from all the pain,
At least....
in that way i wld already feel that i have gained..
My emo song..
《 More Than I Can Say 》 By Bobby Vee *** Debut Year - 1961
* Woh, oh oh, yeah yeah
I Love you more than I can say
I'll love you twice as much tomorrow
Woh, woh, love you more than I can say *
Woh, oh oh, yeah yeah
I miss youevery single day
Why must my life be filled with sorrow
Woh, woh, love you more than I can say
** Don't you know I need you so
Tell me please, I gotta know
Do you mean to make me cry
Am I just another guy ? **
( Repeat * and ** then * )
It's been a week since.....
i actually miss that night.ha.it's farni how strongly i felt even though it's the first time in so many years we've met once again..that feeling i once felt so long ago..
i wonder if u felt the same way too..
argh.silly me.
It's gonna be another 5 more days before i can hope again.
Will the days just aimlessly past by me?
i'm back finally. That is from BLOGGING & camp.Yes i'm back from blogging..but i think no ones reading right now except for myself.Being away form blogging.Lost that touch already.And i'll need to find it back b4 this blog is being restored to the good old days..
No particular reason why i stopped blogging,just pure laziness i guess.I'll try to make at least an entry every week,coz i only have one and a half days back home.Which is not a lot for a NS man desperate for time away from the distant Chang Naval Base.=\
It's raining now..and i'm freezing like hell..
Is it because of the howling wind?
Or because i can't get to see ur pretty face?
Hmmm..
I'm so movtivated to jog right now..i just love the way the rain drops heavily on your head and body..so refreshing.
Reminds me of my BMT favourtie song..
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When the cold wind blows...
When the cold wind blows...
When the cold wind blows...
When the cold wind blows...
When the cold wind blows...
I know i know...
You have to go...
So hurry back home...
Coz i miss you so......
*****
going jog b4 the rain stops!!
no0o00o0....dont stop!!
The feeling of booking in...
Sucks.
The feeling of booking in on the first day of the year.
Lagi worse..
it's another 5 long days before i can see the world...
but most importantly.
i hope i can see u again..