just your average sunday evening. just another week ahead for me.with nothing much to look forward to.
trinity ro server versioni'm feeling rather moody these few days. Just one little tiny thing can turn the tables and upset my whole world now. And it did.
it's just a bunch of house keys,nothing really particular or special about it. just that it's been with me since primary school. and a little handy thumbdrive that came along with it.
came right out from my torn packet.
gone.
it's not fair to blame the keys for my mood now.I just need a lame excuse to feel moody. and too bad for the key.=) Just that it happen at the wrong time and for the record, at the wrong place. (Tell me how to find something u dropped in the middle of AYE. LOL)
It's something else. not anyone in particular.
but something.
Something missing.
Missing in the heart.
Not someone.
But something.
That feeling of knowing you're not alone writing out these miserable and pathetic emotions you're having right now. That feeling of tingling sweetness that creates that butterfly effect inside your stomach.
That feeling of being in love.
LOL. i always thought i could live 潇洒-ly and just take things in stride. But it seems that these days are numbered.
i'm reaching a quarter-life crisis.
i'm beginning to feel empty, depressed
how do i know??
let's see what the net has to say..
Characteristics of quarter-life crisis may include:
feeling "not good enough" because one can't find a job that is at one's academic/intellectual level - YES
frustration with relationships, the working world, and finding a suitable job or career - BIG YES
confusion of identity - YES
insecurity regarding the near future - NO
insecurity concerning long-term plans, life goals - YES
insecurity regarding present accomplishments - YES
re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships - BIG YES
disappointment with one's job - NO
tendency to hold stronger opinions - YES
boredom with social interactions - YES
loss of closeness to high school and college friends - YES
financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.) - NO
conspicuous consumption - acquisition of unusual or expensive items such as clothing, sports cars, jewellery, GADGETS!!, tattoos, motorbikes, etc.
- OMG YES!!
loneliness - BIGGEST YES
desire to have children - NO at the moment
a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you - YES
12 out of the 16 symptoms of quarter life crisis. So what do you think??
I feel disgusted when i'm out with friends or in the streets, watching pairs hand-in-hand walking in, out, around and past me. Not at them, but at myself.
I need some L-O-V-E.
pls. anybody..
just anybody.
i can't take it anymore. =